have u?
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: "rebel yell"
Topic: have u?
Have u ever felt like ur chained to something but u want it,though it makes u depressed?like,if u try to do something that u think that u think will make u feel better but in reality only worse?i feel like that 24/7.sometimes its different things but mostly its just one.my love of my life,Taylor.i love him to death and im happy w/him but its just...hes the one thing that makes me perfect and yet hes so far out of reach.i cant see him because he lives in texas but we have phonecalls and online chats all the time.i guess u could say hes my other half.i broke uo w/him twice before because i loved him too much.sounds weird right?well,for me it hurt me so much not being able to be next to him and just being able to touch him.i get depressed so easily and i just thought it would be better to be apart than to be unfair to our hearts.3 months passed since our last break-up and we just couldnt stand being apart any longer.every little thing reminded us of eachother.it ended up tearing us apart.it was like experiencing dying 20 times in a row without actually being able to die.it was suffering.now that ive experienced the sorrow,torture and sadness i now know not to do it ever again.wat can i say?im a slow learner.hes just not like anyone else,normally i would have gotten over anyone else but i cant with him,i love him too much.u may think im too young to know wat love is but believe me i dont.being apart from eachother,being so far out of reach only makes our relationship stronger.its just not worth looking for any other "right guy" because for me,this is him.it is said that there is always at least 1 guy that will die for u,for me,i think its him.i dont even look at him as my boyfriend,i look at him as my husband.hes 16 and im 13 but we love eachother.we even talk about our future together.i would do anything just to speed up time and just live together,and just to touch him would be enough.i love him more than i can explain.~Heidi

Another noobie to the site
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: "Stacy's Mom"
Topic: Hello ppl
Hey everyone,im new to this site and just wanted to start a journal,dont exactly know why.i have to get used to this,lol.anyway,im 13 and ill be updating my journal or however this thingie works. ~Heidi